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To bait fish withal: if it will feed nothing else, it will feed my revenge. He hath disgraced me, and hindered me half a million; laughed at my losses, mocked at my gains, scorned my nation, thwarted my bargains, cooled my friends, heated mine enemies; and what’s his reason? I am a Jew. Hath not a Jew eyes? hath not a Jew hands, organs, dimensions, senses, affections, passions? fed with the same food, hurt with the same weapons, subject to the same diseases, healed by the same means, warmed and cooled by the same winter and summer, as a Christian is? If you prick us, do we not bleed? if you tickle us, do we not laugh? if you poison us, do we not die? and if you wrong us, shall we not revenge? If we are like you in the rest, we will resemble you in that. If a Jew wrong a Christian, what is his humility? Revenge. If a Christian wrong a Jew, what should his sufferance be by Christian example? Why, revenge. The villany you teach me, I will execute, and it shall go hard but I will better the instruction.
Paulus is a man who my father calls his best friend and my brother calls his godfather. To me he is magic. We are visiting him in North Carolina in the New Year.
So as graduation creeps up on me as a cat creeps up on the innocent, unsuspecting grasshopper, there are a billion anxieties and stresses running through my mind. And inevitably, the cat will pounce and I will die. Unless I’m clever enough to survive, and let’s fucking hope so.
When I graduate from my Bachelor of Fine Arts (Acting) will I be considered a professional actor? And if not, when does one “graduate” from amateur to professional? According to dictionary.com (quickly becoming my new best friend) an amateur is (amongst other things): a person who engages in a study, sport, or other activity for pleasure rather than for financial benefit or professional reasons and a person inexperienced or unskilled in a particular activity. I have been paid for a couple of acting jobs and 3 years of acting training would hopefully render me somewhat “skilled” but somehow I don’t find myself existing in this world of professionalism. A professional can be defined as: following an occupation as a means of livelihood or for gain and yes, of course I am following the occupation of acting as a means of livelihood but doesn’t that mean supporting oneself financially as an actor?
I have recently had to detail my skills on an online casting website where you can put your abilities into 3 categories: skilled, highly skilled or professional. The only thing I could feel comfortable putting professional next to was my Australian Accent’! As an actor it is important to improve your skills in a variety of areas (I have started weekly tennis and singing lessons!) but for me, personally, I need to have things in my life that aren’t related to my career which is why I have decided to improve my skills in other creative outlets.
I have recently acquired the old model of the Canon EOS5D a “professional” camera. Embarassingly, I do not know the first thing about proper photography and am determined to learn how to use it well and take awesome photos.
Another skill I wish to become better at is the art of cooking. Food is a ridiculously huge passion in my life and whilst I like to say that I am a decent cook, my knowledge and skills base is pretty pathetic. I pledge to improve myself in this division.
I do not wish to become a professional photographer or professional chef but would like to journey from an amateur to highly skilled in both areas.
As for my acting, I will let you know once I become a professional. Which is going to happen by the way. I’m not going to die.
THEREFORE I would like to document my journey into becoming a:
I act, I cook, I photo